Finally I wrote it down! I’m getting married in the summer of 2011. The name of the groom is still unknown but I can feel it in my bones that it’s going to happen because this year, I’m getting engaged.
You have to laugh at my thoughts sometimes. It takes me far and wide and not even the cracks are spared. Marriage is one of those things that I don’t feel is a requirement for a happy life but something that I’d want to experience. When I was a teenager, I told myself that I won’t tie myself down ’till I’m 35. But back then, you have to understand, I had the wrong concept of marriage. I concluded, from observing other marriages, that it was something that would take away my freedom. But the more I was exposed to families who had God-centered values, suddenly marrying the man I’m destined to be with for the rest of my life has become a very appealing prospect.
At the risk of sounding desperate, I had to give God a deadline. Hahahaha. He did say “ask and you shall receive”, didn’t He. And this is just me taking Him up on His offer.
I wonder how I’d look like married. I’ve been single for too long I don’t know how I’d look with a man for an accessory. It’s weird but I always imagined myself being married to a well-built man but right now I’m convinced that I’m ending up with this 5′ 4″ guy that I know who’s a bit wanting in the physique department. But he’s smart and funny and more importantly, he’s my destiny (or at least I think he is), so I’m willing to edit my mental pictures of our wedding day.
Most women imagine the day of their weddings. What they would wear, who will be there, the venue, the food, etc. If thoughts are covered by the law of the land, I would have committed polygamy many times over. Everytime I’m crushing on someone, I would imagine us exhanging vows before God and the people we love. But for some reason, those mental exercises never take me to the wedding night or to the day after. I guess I’m just a silly romantic whose willing to enjoy the euphoric sound of wedding bells but not have the balls to think about the not-so-glam images of married life.
Is my heart in the right place? Or am I really just not willing to forego the wedding experience which is why I have resorted to writing down wedding dates (and designing wedding gowns, decorating the venue, making a guest list, listing activities…). Sigh.
Oh well, my dear readership of 10 (at least I hope there’s at least 10 of you), I guess we’ll just have to wait for 2011 to find out.